A Dream
We looked out the bedroom window into the night sky. Sudden explosions of light appeared. We both thought they were beautiful; there were no words. The light bursts continued across the sky and drew nearer and nearer. We watched in awe until the black silhouettes of helicopters appeared. Then we were scared.

a useful and reassuring tautology:

you are on the way to where you are going.

<sup>Song of Songs Chapter 5


Bridegroom:
1</sup>"I have come into my garden, my sister, my bride;
I have gathered my myrrh along with my balsam 
I have eaten my honeycomb and my honey;
I have drunk my wine and my milk 
Eat, friends;
Drink and imbibe deeply, O lovers." 
Bride:
²"I was asleep but my heart was awake.
A voice! My beloved was knocking:
'Open to me, my sister, my darling,
My dove, my perfect one!
For my head is drenched with dew,
My locks with the damp of the night.' 
³"I have taken off my dress,
How can I put it on again?
I have washed my feet,
How can I dirty them again? 
⁴"My beloved extended his hand through the opening,
And my feelings were aroused for him. 
⁵"I arose to open to my beloved;
And my hands dripped with myrrh,
And my fingers with liquid myrrh,
On the handles of the bolt. 
⁶"I opened to my beloved,
But my beloved had turned away and had gone!
My heart went out to him as he spoke 
I searched for him but I did not find him;
I called him but he did not answer me. 
⁷"The watchmen who make the rounds in the city found me,
They struck me and wounded me;
The guardsmen of the walls took away my shawl from me. 
⁸"I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem,
If you find my beloved,
As to what you will tell him:
For I am lovesick." 

spontaneous human combustion

by amanda allyn

you are so hot,

i fear you may spontaneously combust.

i cannot stop staring at you.

i would like to get to know you better,

but we mustn’t speak because then

you would like to get to know me better too,

and one thing would lead to another:

we would fall in love and spend countless hours together.

i would think about how hot you are

and one night when i am sleeping next to you

and you are holding me tightly

you will burst into flames.

i am a very sound sleeper so i would not wake up.

the next morning they would find piles of ashes

where our bodies once laid

and take pictures

and send them to the discovery channel.

we would be known as the “cinder couple,”

and our story would be featured on a

spontaneous human combustion program.

and that’s just not the way i want to make my mark on the world...

or die.

in a endless night 

would you feel the fright
of the age that wasn't
could never be
so we hold it close
when we feel the most 
like a love that we could not leave behind 
we turn the wheel
to which way we feel
till our thoughts lift
i can not find you there
don't forget the nights when it all felt right
are you not the same as you used to be
used to be

even if i try so hard
would we still be coming to an end
even if we spoke the same words
would we still return as friends
even if its simple from the start
we will give the pieces of the heart
and when there is nothing left to pretend
we will know its coming to an end

even if we try so hard
we will give pieces of our heart
its always good to see you again
even if its coming to an end


"used to be" - beach house
video - "le ballon rouge"
edited by Amanda Allyn